Generally Negative
I’m feeling really angry.
If Chris is reading this, he’ll say that I am always angry. But I am not always angry, I am just emphatic. I tend to express myself in a way in which I am loud, and I come across as angry, despite being in a really good mood.
When I am actually angry, however, it shows (I think) and people are very, very afraid of me. Over the last few hours, I’ve been sending text messages to my friend Bryan, who is really actually one of the more understanding people that I know. Even when I feel like I am being a terrible person, or my other friends insinuate I’m being a terrible person, Bryan usually brings me down from that freak out and speaks the truth.
I don’t really want to talk about why I am angry, because I know exactly what people will say. I know what their advice will be, and since I haven’t listened to them for the last two years, I probably won’t now.
I feel friendless lately, and I’ve come to realize that the only people who really come to my rescue are boys that like me. Granted, they want something from me. And eventually, they too, won’t give a fuck when I’m crying.
